My Friend Went To Heaven

In the dark of the night, you left.

Not just the earth, but everyone who loved you. 

You felt there was nothing, that your life was a mess.

You tried for so long, but those black vines kept pulling you down.

You kept your happy face on, only some knew your heart.

I tried to help, but it was beyond my ability.

All I could do was pray. 

Now you're gone, I realise how much I loved you,

and how much others love you.

I didn't know how much you were a part of my life.

I am missing you more than I could've imagined.

I feel heartbroken, angry, sad, awful, helpless. And relieved.

Relieved that your battle is over, that you're no longer struggling...

that you're in peace.

You were always making me laugh, and now the tears fall and fall.

I can't believe you did this; can't believe you're gone. 

I want to talk to you, just one more time.

You're gone, but you're in heaven now.

Thanks for everything, Troy. 

I love you, I miss you, I'll never forget you.

Spanner xx 

Play the drums for Jesus in heaven!

{A week ago, my friend Troy made the choice to end his life}

{It was one of the most heartbreaking, awfullest things}

From Underneath The Stars, We Watch The Sky

yesterday this girl from australia worked out how to use her macro extension tubes properly.

she is happy!

she also was watering her plants and noted how pretty the water looked in the late afternoon sunlight. 

so she grabbed her camera, and the photos came out with amazing rainbows, sunflare and bokeh! 

New Addition To My Camera family! (and some creativeness)

i got my new, little baby today

he arrived in a little box which held him snug

he's so little!

my canon EF 50mm f/1.8 II

check out how tiny it's cap is compared to the others

well it doesn't look that much different but when you hold it you can feel it's smallness!

these are the pics it takes (all 'sooc'):

my lovely mother ♥

my garden!

i bought the lens from ebay; it was $50 cheaper than if i had bought it in a shop! gotta love a bargain.

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i am now at the end of my 3 week summer holidays  :(    all my life i've had 7 weeks to enjoy the sunshine, beaches and icy poles, so i was a bit shocked when i learnt i only had 3 weeks! oh, the joys of having a job. 

slowly i have been moving things out of my room and into my caravan. I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF. and i'm not proud of it! mainly craft stuff, and things i can't part with. i'm badly sentimental with material things, tsk tsk. bad hannah. 

i've just went to a shop (apparently it's american so you mighta heard of it) called 'masters'. awesome place. they had cherry tomato plants, 2 for $1!! eeek! so cheap. bought 6.  

and- i really love indoor plants, and when i saw one with leaves that were 2 of my fave colours- green and purple- i just had to. had to bring it home. 

so beautiful.

that is me and my life at the moment. 

and now for some inspiration.

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get:

1 photoframe- 

{literally just the frame, 

chuck out the glass and the backing and the little, standing up thingy}

string/twine

minature wooden pegs

awesome little things

and make this.

ain't it gorgeous!

colours that i was gonna paint my caravan but then i decided not to

tag from Cotton On (more awesome bargains from there) and a feather from a bird

i'm sure you can work out how to make it.

TA DAH!

you now have an awesome thing to hang up.

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and to end off this little post, here's what i've been doing in my art book the last few days.

i drew my plant

attributes that are good to have... and good in a man you're considering marrying   :p

that's all from me today, have a nice day/sleep!

hannah xx